The Life of Me

Walk away joe...

2006-04-01T07:45:08Z

Mama told her baby girl...take it real slow,
Girl told he mam, hey i really gotta go...
he's waiting in the car,
Mama said girl you wont get far...
Thus are the dreams of an average jane...
90 miles a hour down a lovers lane, on a tank of dreams,
Oh if she could have only seen...
That fates got cards that it dont want to show...
that boys just a walk away joe...
born to be a leaver...tell you from the word go...
destined to deceive her...he's the wrong kind of paridise...
she'll know it in a matter of time...
that boys just a walk away joe...
Now just a little while into Abeleine...
pulls into a station and he robs it clean...
she's waiting in the car,
underneath the Texaco star,
she only wanted love, didn't bargain for this...
she can't help but love him for the way he is...
she's only 17 and there aint no easily,
so she'll ride this ride as far as it can go...
that boy's just a walk away joe, born to be a leaver...
tell you from the word go...destined to deceive her...
He's the wrong kinda paradise...she's gonna know it in matter of time,
that boys just a walk away joe....
Somewhere in a road side motel room..alone in the silence she wakes up too soon,
and she reaches for his arm, but she'll just keep reaching on...for the
cold hard truth revealed what it had known....
that boys just a walk away joe....born to be a leaver...
tell you from the word go...destined to deceive her...
he's the wrong kind of paradise...but it was just another lesson in life...
that boy was a walk away joe...
All he was...was a walk away joe

emmaroxursox @ 2005-05-30T19:10:00

2005-05-31T00:10:54Z

Went to go see Crash today...its an awesome movie...everyone should go see it-it will totally change your out look on life!

emmaroxursox @ 2005-05-29T10:39:00

2005-05-29T15:41:30Z

Friday was fucking awesome! Rusty the Hell Cat and making peace with Aaron Self- What a fucked up world we live in!

emmaroxursox @ 2005-05-24T22:19:00

2005-05-25T03:27:53Z

ok ya'll so here's what i've been up to...

Sunday i took Vincent to the pool...

His bathing suit cracked me up...it has like all kinds of floaties inside-he looked like an orange Santa with his belly!

Monday i had coffee with stef and watched 24 with Andy-it was an AWESOME season finale

And Tonight i went out for coffee with Linda and Stef! It was great to see them and Ryan (who i haven't seen in forever) met us up there!

It goes Stefanie, me , and Linda

And right now i'm watching Leagally Blonde...

emmaroxursox @ 2005-05-22T10:33:00

2005-05-22T15:39:04Z

So i actually went to go see star wars yesterday! I went with my dad to his company picnic and hung out with jane and jono-then i took my dad home and went up to the woodlands to go see Rusty. We went to go see Star Wars and i liked it. The graphics were incredible and the story tied everything together, but it was so fucking looooooooooong. Then i went back to Rustys and ate steak (which his dad had cooked), and we were going to watch the Hulk, but i was too sleepy. Today i'm taking Vincent to the pool and out to lunch! If anyone wants to come the number is 713 494 8361:)

emmaroxursox @ 2005-05-21T12:31:00

2005-05-21T17:50:09Z

Here's some pics of what i've been up to this week:

This is me and woo woo (my favorite baby). He's learning to walk...

This is Andy sleeping on the job...go figure!

Andy givin' me a kiss...

Adam and I at Chilli's yesterday...America Fuck Yeah! Team America World Police...most Fucking Hilarious movie of the year...

and today the Intec (not Innotec off Office Space) company picnic...

emmaroxursox @ 2005-05-15T22:34:00

2005-05-16T03:45:27Z

Well ya'll i finally did it...I got a tattoo! It wasn't as bad as i thought it was going to be:)
Thats it-

And here's some pics of me

and another pic of me and my little bro.

Aww how sweet...lol

I'll post more pix later

emmaroxursox @ 2005-03-28T11:47:00

2005-03-28T17:48:15Z

SHERYL CROW LYRICS

"My Favorite Mistake"

I woke up and called this morning
The tone of your voice was a warning
That you don't care for me anymore

I made up the bed we sleep in
I looked at the clock when you creep in
It's 6 a.m. and I'm alone

[Chorus:]
Did you know when you go
It's the perfect ending
To the bad day I been used to spending
When you go all I know is
You're my favorite mistake

Your friends are sorry for me
They watch you pretend to adore me
But I'm no fool to this game

Now here comes your secret lover
She'd be unlike any other
Until your guilt goes up in flames

[Chorus]

You're my favorite mistake

Well maybe nothin' lasts forever
Even when you stay together
I don't need forever after
It's your laughter won't let me go
So I'm holding on this way

Did you know, could you tell
You were the only one
That I ever loved
Now everything's so wrong

Did you see me walking by?
Did it ever make you cry?

You're my favorite mistake
You're my favorite mistake
You're my favorite mistake

emmaroxursox @ 2005-03-25T13:53:00

2005-03-25T19:56:00Z

Ok so my weekend goes:
Friday: Babysit for the Easterby's @5:30 then round to Andrea's to party
Saturday: Go deposit my check, clean up a little bit, watch the indcredibles and hopefully back round to Andrea's to party it up!
Sunday:Maybe go out with Linda in the morning, other than that i'm open to suggestions!

Doing Alright

2005-03-24T14:35:28Z

This week has been a lot easier than last week...i still get a little jealous but i realize that andy chose not to be with me...yesterday i went out to eat with Lorie and she explained some things to me that i had been to naiive to see...talked to jenny for a little while and she's going through a lot of the same shit i'm going through, then aaron called me and we talked for a while...about everything. It's always interesting to meet new people, because you have so much to talk about. Anyway i have to go shower and take Andy to school, because i guess i'm just trying to be a good friend. Anyway i'll update more later!

emmaroxursox @ 2005-03-20T19:33:00

2005-03-21T01:34:14Z

Today was rough...i think everything is always easier for the person whose already moved on, and from what i can tell Andy is pretty into Kristen. Anyway i'm looking for something to do so call the cell 713 494 8361

My Weekend...

2005-03-20T15:58:33Z

Friday i went out with a friend to Chilli's. It was awkward because i made it clear that i just wanted a friend and the whole night i felt like he expected more. After hanging out i was pretty sad and then Calvin called me, so i went round to his house and we talked, he gave me a lot of good advice. Yesterday i got up and went out with Linda...it was good to see her. Then i Julie called me and i talked to her, then i took a shower, and went to Best Buy to get the Killers CD, whilel i was there i figured i would sign up for a best buy credit card, and i got approved for a 1200 dollar credit limit. Then Andrea called me and i went round to her house and Robert and his girlfriend had got a new kitten and we sat around and talked, then everyone decided that i needed a "fuck that bitch" party. Andrea, roberts girlfriend,and i went to walmart to buy food and i got a cute new blanket. Then we got back and Charlotte called, so we went round to charlottes house and everyone was hanging out, Charlotte and i left to go buy stuff to make margaritas. We came back and Mike was there...it was fun, there were a couple of rough moments but i had a blast. I was doing tequila shots in between my margaritas, so by the time we went to leave i was about ready to pass out. I let Michael drive my car home and he and mike played video games and i crashed in the spare room. It was kinda weird, thats the first night i have ever spent alone at andreas, but i'll be ok eventually, and i did have a lot of fun. Today i'm going sailing with my dad, which sucks because i will have lots of time to think, but i'm starting to feel...i dont know what i feel. But ya know what no matter how much i may hate the thought, life goes on and i can either take it how it is or live in some little dream world.

Its Over

2005-03-15T12:23:13Z

Ok well tonight was it...Andy decided that it was worth ending our relationship to discover if there was anything there with Kristen...He admitted that he was an ass hole and a coward, all things that are true. iApparently a year and two months of time, love and all kinds of other crap were meaningless to him and kristen who he doesn't know if he loves was worth loosing me. Knowing all this i would say that it was a it was worth it to him to loose me to Kristen, I bet she feels special! Basically our relationship was pretty one sided, i cared about him-he cared about pleasing Kristen...but Kristen if you read this, he did it to me...he'll do it to you too. Andy you already know how i feel about Kristen, but if thats what makes you happy...have at it baby! It's OVER!

My Worst Nightmare come true....

2005-03-15T07:01:07Z

Today i finally pieced everything together. For a long time i've been denying to myself and to other people that their relationship is more than a friendship. Today i found out the truth! For a long time Andy and I have been having problems, and i've given him multiple opportunities to break up with me, i even gave him that opportunity today, but apparently he wants to hold on to me until he is sure that his and Kristen's relationship will develop. I found out that apparently he has been looking for a reason to break up with me and Kristen likes him again and he likes her. I don't understand why he's still lying to me and telling me that they are just friends...I love him, and i trusted him and he lied to me. He told me he wasn't john and he wouldn't hurt me in the same way, but he is doing exactly the same thing. I trusted him to be with me, and to treat me with love and respect. I feel like every time he has told me he loved me this past weekend he was lying...that when he had sex with me and kissed me it meant nothing to him, and i just dont know what to do. If i could talk to him i could either clear this up as a misunderstanding or find out that he doesn't love me anymore, but he's not at home he's at Kristens. Which is how i know deep down that its going to be the worst...that he has been lying to me, and he loved her all along, and i meant nothing to him. Anyway i'm going to try and sleep...try and figure out where to go from here...

emmaroxursox @ 2005-03-14T21:52:00

2005-03-15T03:57:46Z

Ok so here's my week...call me if you want to do something: 713 494 8361

Tonight: Adam's to pick up my braclet and starbucks with lorie
Tuesday: Spending the night at Lorie's...getting my drink on and watching movies...girls night! WooHOO
Wednesday: Out with Kasey
Thursday: Dinner with my dad, but i'm open after that!
Friday: Hopefully out with Linda, but call me if you want to join or do something later:)
Saturday: Maybe going to Galveston with Adam, but im still open to other suggestions
Sunday: Don't know

* I need to do my Biology Project sometime and i have a bunch of shit to do for Life Growth and Development

Call me

emmaroxursox @ 2005-03-14T08:14:00

2005-03-14T14:14:58Z

Taurus - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits:

You tend to stick with relationships - through the good and the bad.

You are a great listener and tend to give valuable advice.

Cautious and careful, you never jump in recklessly... saving yourself from heartbreak.

Your negative traits:

Money is very important to you, so much so that it's a cause of arguments in relationships.

If your lover isn't loyal or attentive enough to you, your eyes start to wander...

You tend to keep things inside - so your partner may not know when or why you're upset.

Your ideal partner:

Is stable, serious, and ready to be committed to you.

Is successful and able to provide you with the lifestyle you crave.

A true romantic, who is willing to express their desire for your heart.

Your dating style:

Comfortable and traditional. You'd love to have a nice meal at a cozy restaurant.

Your seduction style:

Love comes first for you before you'd even think of intimacy.

Traditional: you're not a cold fish - but you're not into kink either.

Pleasing... you always make sure that your partner is having a good time.

Tips for the future:

Be willing to change your mind. Who you think is the love of your life may be very wrong for you.

Try listening to your mate. While your stubborn streak is hard to break, sometimes your partner knows best.

Ligthen up! The first months of a relationship should be about fun, not intentions.

Best place to meet someone online:

American Singles - peek in on how much potential dates make, and what they do for a living.

Best color to attract mate: Pale blue

Best day for a date: Friday

Get your free love profile at Blogthings.

I would say that this is pretty accurate (besides for the eye wandering thing and the money part)

emmaroxursox @ 2005-03-14T08:11:00

2005-03-14T14:12:45Z

Your Porn Star Name is: Nurse Naughty

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Taurus Horoscope for 3/7 - 3/13

This week's scenario is highlighted by you seeing improvements in your personal and romantic life.

A sense of mutual harmony and support makes for more peaceful and secure surroundings.

You care deeply and passionately for the people in your care.

Children are especially adored now and flourish through your offers of love and guidance.

You may feel helpful and contented when you mother and comfort your spouse, loved ones, and children.

You enjoy happy times when socializing with your family, which may involve creative activities or just simple pleasures at this time.

This horoscope provided by Astrology Source.

Learn about your inner self, friends, and lovers.

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I wish horoscopes were accurate....

emmaroxursox @ 2005-03-14T08:07:00

2005-03-14T14:07:52Z

Your Love Number is

2

Of all the numbers, you are the most caring and empathetic lover.
Unselfish and humble, you find it easy to forgive your sweetie's mistakes.
At times, your need to please can be come a bit too needy.
As long as you remain somewhat independent, your relationships are perfectly balanced.

What Is Your Love Number?

I guess i just skipped out on the independence part, and the forigving your lover easily...although if its the difference between breaking up, i'm pretty quick to forgive

emmaroxursox @ 2005-03-13T22:36:00

2005-03-14T05:13:57Z

Hey-This week has been kinda rough, andy and i have been fighting a lot. He decided that he doesn't know if he wants to be with me, so i've been treading on egg shells all weekend trying not to make him mad, but i just couldn't do it. I decided that we both needed a break, but this time i'm ok with it. I'm not going to say i don't miss him and think about him, because i do! He's been my life for the past year, and its like now i have to rebuild. Being with Andy made me loose myself. He's always so excited about everyone, but me! Read his journal...all you have to do is look at the entries about Kristen...all smileys and happiness, but not one mention of me...even when he spent the whole weekend with me. Being with him made me feel like i wasn't good enough, but i am. I have just become obsolete to him, he has me so he wants something else. Maybe this week he'll decide he wants to be with someone else, maybe he'll come back to me at the end of the week and realize that he missed me and wants to be with me, but whatever happens i'll be ok. I discovered Anna Nalick today--AMAZING! She says things the way i wish i could.

Things I want from Life:

I want to become a nurse, i want to move into my own apartment, i want to get married, i want to dissappear to the Virgin Islands, i want to travel the world, i want someone to be totally madly in love with me ( a mutual feeling), i want to be young again and not make the same mistakes, i want to be a great mother and lover, i want to make someones day, i want to make a difference, i want to loose 30lbs, i want to fix my hair color, i want to be totally selfless, i want to go to a restaurant and order 20 different things and try them all, i want to go to our high school reunion and make peace with everyone, i want to know, i want to do well in school, i want to adopt a panda, i want to sing karaoke (when i'm not drunk), i want to mean everything to someone, i want to do something nice for my family, i want to be my own person, i want to not feel guilty, i want to be a great friend, i want to be a great girlfriend, lover, and wife, i want to relax, i want to be able to stand for what i believe in, i want to be appreciated, i want to be important, i want to be engaged to the love of my life, i want to fix my life, i want to be me and be totally ok with who i am, i want to visit jenny in california, i want to get a tan, i want to go to cancun for spring break, i want to be sponataneous, i want to go away to college or just go away, i want to dance on a bar, i want to write poetry, i want to say goodby to my grandmother, i want to know what its like to have a baby, i want to travel round europe, i want to bar hop, i want to have fresh flowers sent to my house just because someone wants to let me know their thinking about me, i want someone to call just to say they love me, i want to call someone just to say i love them, i want to bleach my teeth, i want to lay in bed all day naked with someone i love, i want someone to bring me breakfast in bed, i want to go shopping one day and not worry about money, i want to be independent, i want to feel good enough, i want to make love by the ocean, i want to make love on the kitchen table, i want to be kissed passionately at least once a day, i want to be totally devoted to someone and know the feelings mutual, i want to live to be a hundred, i want to cure cancer and aids, i want to undestand biology, i want to love my job, i'll write more wants later!

Anna Nalick - Breathe (2am) Lyrics

2am and she calls me cause I'm still awake
Can you help me unravel my latest mistake
I don't love him and winter just wasn't my season.
Yea we walk through the doors so accusing their eyes
Like they have any right at all to criticize
Hypocrites you're all here for the very same reason.

Cause you can't jump the track
We're like cars on a cable and life's like an hourglass glued to the table,
No one can find the rewind button girl
So just cradle your head in your hands.
And breathe, just breathe, whoa breathe just breathe

May he turned 21 on the base of Fort Bliss
Just today he sat down to the flask in his fist
Ain't been sober since maybe October of last year
Here in town you can tell he's been down for while
But my God it's so beautiful when the boy smiles
Wanna hold him but maybe I'll just sing about it

Cause you can't jump the track
We're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass glued to the table,
No one can find the rewind button boys so cradle your head in your hands
And breathe, just breathe, whoa breath just breathe

There's a light at the end of this tunnel you shout cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out
And these mistakes you've made
You'll just make them again if you'll only try turnin' around

2am and I'm still awake writing this song
If i get it all down on paper it's no lonmger inside of me threaten' the life it belongs to.
And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary screamin' out aloud
And I know that you'll use them however you want to.

But you can't jump the track
We're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass glued to the table,
No one can find the rewind button now
Sing it if you understand...yeah breath
Just breathe, ohho breathe.

emmaroxursox @ 2005-03-12T15:00:00

2005-03-12T21:00:41Z

name you call me:
name i call you:
inside jokes:
last time we hung out:
last time we talked:
any class together?:
do i update you in my personal life?:
do i update you in my love life?:

// What is/are my best -->

quality as a friend:
quality as a person in general:
physical feature:
thing im good at:

<-- Am i yes or no \\

outgoing?:
pretty?:
enthusiastic?:
loveable?:
trustworthy?:
respectful?:
kind?:
ambitious?:
successful?:
friendly?:
athletic?:
emotional?:
funny?:
spontaneous?:
slutty?:
OC?:
smart?:
bitter?:
spoiled?:
weird?:
preppy?:
likeable?:

// Do i make you -->

laugh?:
sad?:
happy?:
cry?:
uncomfortable?:
intimidated?:
smile?:

<-- More random \\

describe my personality in 5 words:
what category would you put me under? (goth, punk, preppy, etc):
are we compatible?:
what guy would i be best with?:
who do i remind you of?:
what color do i remind you of?:
what animal do i remind you of?:
what thing do i remind you of?:
who acts the most like me?:
when you or someone else says my name, what immediately comes to mind?:
if you could give me a make over what would the new me look like?:
if you could change one thing about me, what would it be?:
you have the most fun with me when we're...:

// Last question -->

you're friends with me because.

Its been a While!!!

2005-03-04T03:34:19Z

Hey ya'll so it's been a while! A lot has happened since i last wrote, but i'll start with the good and get to the bad! 2 Friday's ago Jenny and I went to Austin! It was so awesome...we went shopping and bought matching Dooney and Bourke bags in different colors, then we ate at Outback, went home, got ready, and went out clubbing! I'm so glad i have a friend like Jenny! Last weekend i went to Andreas and it was fun except for the whole puking till 1 o'clock in the afternoon the next day! I left out the fact that Andy and i took a break, but it ended up alright! We're still together and things are improving (well kinda), but at least we're not moving backwards! And i'm secure in the fact that he loves me even though we have our problems! Monday March 1st my Nanny died! Apparently she died in the bathtub from a massive anuerism-the doctors said she didn't feel much pain if any, but it was still a shock and very difficult for me to deal with. It's like i didn't believe it and i'll think of the most random thing and then realize she wont be there anymore...It's hard! Anyway that it for me:) I'll write more sometime!

WOW!

2005-02-12T17:10:30Z

Last night was amazing:) But lets start from the beginning, i woke up and went to the INS where they informed us that after four years of stamps they may have lost our paper work and we should fill out another form and start over...woopee! Then i got home and andy called me to tell me that he had strep, like me! What a surprise! Then I called work and they told me to come in around 3, so i went to get my truck serviced, but it was going to take 4 hours, so i decided to go to andy's instead! We snuggled and ate chinese food, then i came home and took a quick shower and and took my truck to get it services. They took me to work (which is self expanatory) i think all i need to say is 3 hours with Dylan is MORE than enough! So i went back to Andy's and he, Brad, Kyle, and i went out for pizza. Then we cam home and Andy didn't feel good, so we laid down. We talked, argued a little bit, and then had the most amazing evening! So hopefully today will be just as good:)

emmaroxursox @ 2005-02-10T19:19:00

2005-02-11T01:19:16Z

Take the quiz: "What Kinda Kiss R U?"

Tender Kiss
The tender kiss is the feeling where you can be anywhere and show your feelings.

It's Been a While!

2005-01-26T02:37:54Z

Hey ya'll it's been a while! I just got finished doing my biology homework online:) Work is going really suckily! Apparently we have a mandatory meeting on saturday morning at freaking 7:00 in the morning! But the worst part is that Kasey, Andy and I had planned to go to Mardi Gras in Louisiana, but now we have to go to Galveston instead! Also coming up JENNY and I are going to see KENYY CHESNEY on March 9th! WOO HOO! If anyone knows of any available jobs...Let me know!! Thanks

EWWWWWWWWWWWW

2005-01-12T04:34:06Z

Ok so i started with 3 ringworms and now i have 8 all over...3 of them on my face so i look like a dumbass with bandaids all over. For anyone who cares ringworm is a fungus that is highly contagious and spread through direct contact (say if someone had 5 on their chin and you kissed them). It is commonly spread by dogs and cats who have mange (such as elby the cute little kitten with a balding head). You can treat it with topical creams, but when you have an outbreak on your scalp, in your beard, or as severe as mine you may need an oral treatment called sporanex which should clear it up in a week. Basically you will spend your free time covering them in jock itch cream and making sure you dont scratch it or anywhere it could be. Word of advice check yourself if you think you've been exposed! It sucks and you dont want to end up with eight of them! Now i'm gonna go wash my hands change my bedding and wash my hands again! Ya'll have a great night:)